Pride

Is it worth it
if it's broken
in places that it shouldn't be

Was it real
or just a heartbreaking
stomach grabbing
God I can feel it
kind of Dream

You're so much bigger
in my memories
than I ever gave you credit for

Is it worth it
if the smell
still lingers here
everywhere we've been
everywhere I still go
even if you never did

If every touch
I've ever felt
from your hands
the brush of fingertips
across my cheek
goosebumps rise on skin

Yes, I still do

Is it worth it
if I said I hate
knowing how you love
how it hurts
like I'm repeatedly
swallowing my pride
swallowing my heart

I can't live in
beautiful lies
no matter how
beautiful the words

If it's all over
if it's all given up
was it worth it?